Archive for December, 2009

New direction to blog my day

December 29, 2009 Leave a comment

I have done many dumb dumb dumb things in many years. And even few years ago, I wanted to live it better but still I wasted my times a lot. I think and inspired by the movie of Julie and Julia, I need to move on my life and get things done everyday. I at least need to do get a thing done a day, which helps to make my life better. This is a new direction to live my life and I want to see how would it like in next 365 days, a year later. I want to see where I would be and improvement at all.

Categories: General

True or False

December 26, 2009 Leave a comment

True or False? It is a question I really want to ask him? What was/ is his intention to me?  We have been chatting since Nov… The Nov we chat almost everyday, beside weekend, off work hours.  The whole month, I didn’t let me view my cam, just blank chatting and building up the relationship. I didn’t doubt anything about him. He was so sincere and sweet. Until lately, until I started checking him with the messenger status detector, until last week, I found him but did not reply me or chose to visible to me. He definitely online and even started chatting with ‘new friend’, which was my another account. He said he was single and no wife… and just back from HK… etc etc.. On Christmas eve, he ‘online’ to me finally. He lied, saying he was unable to connect the internet due to the heavy snow there. But I was so sure he online for last 3 days as he chatting and left messages to his ‘ new friend’. How disappointed and heart breaking. We did not have cyber/ phone sex til a week ago… is it what he want only? I wish I was wiser. I wish I do… But at the bottom of my heart, I still wish he is true to me ..beside those lies..

Categories: Love life?

Turned out he is a lier

December 23, 2009 Leave a comment

Well, from checking him out from a messenger status detector, obvisly he was online but invisible to me. Then I added him from another ID I have, and we started chatting  grrrrrrrrr!!!! Same thing happened 3 days so far. He actually sent message to my another ID even it was offline. But his wife to be?  He was invisible to her. Oh my God! I thought everything had gone well and lovely.. but I am too nive. I am so nive. How old am I? Still believe such online dating thing? I look him down. Such a coward. He just hide or gave up as I kept chasing him for tel number and etc.  

Well, what am I going to do? Should I pickup myself somewhere? Sad that he couldn’t let me have a nice Christmas this year… My Christmas  and New Year wish is to have a BF and get married soon and have a family.

And I need a job very soon.

Categories: General, Love life?

Learn to trust and let go

December 21, 2009 Leave a comment

I am still new learner in relationship even I am not young. I just realized that I have playing too hard in this relationship. Sometimes we should  just let the man be a man and take control. I have been rushing him to save a date, book tickets etc etc.. but I forgot to consider his situation. I never think about if he had the time to discuss these. I should just leave it to him I think. And let him to roll the snow ball when he is ready. Sometimes we women really play too hard and forgot the pride of the beloved one.

Categories: Love life?

:) he is in touch again

December 18, 2009 Leave a comment

Well, He had some problems when he got back home .. and anyway I am happpy that he is back to me 🙂 still so loving and sweet. I can be the happy bride to be again.

Weather is colder these days. And I decided not to continue the KG job now. One too far.. and two.. too much work. I will keep looking for job. Thank God, my sky is bright and shine again.

Today, I will send out the regsign message to the KG. I don’t know what to say yet.. gonna be difficult. .. update u later

Categories: Love life?

Why is he not in touch?

December 17, 2009 Leave a comment

So irresistable now..What can I do? Why is he not online or intouch with me? Why? Did I lose him again? God I don’t even know what to think so..

Categories: Love life?

How men operate themselves?

December 16, 2009 Leave a comment

Well, he flew back and I still haven’t heard from him again. He supposed be there on Mon morning. But now its Tue evening there.. he still not in touch with me. Do I have some problems? I feel so nervous worried.. panic whenever he is not in touch or online.. Many questions just running in my mind.. like why he couldn’t call me? why he couldn’t email me? I don’t know men well. I still learning how they operate? How do they think and process things.. I think it is time for me to  the Mars and Venus book… sigh..

Categories: General Posts